rainbow raven, rainbow river

dear diary, i apologise. i haven’t been able to write for a while, i got desperate lost control tried to cut myself open with a kitchen knife just to get an idea of what is moving around inside and i set my intestines on fire for the ultimate sacrifice. isn't it striking, how every action is ultimately completely symmetrical.

nightfall leaves me craving the most unfathomable things, pouring rose water over pagan faces simply to keep them in place, crawling around in my own dirt, creeping at the feet of a sullen master. i’ve told you once before, your highness, my princess prostitute mankind upsets me more than anything. so bow, children of the rainbow the judge is ready for our crucifixion

psychotic schoolgirls licking on fentanyl plasters dried up lollipops pornographic novels standing in line like kinky toy soldiers

by the windowsill, loudly claiming an entire planet, a realm of their own

the ringleader: oh boy, it's just another one of them stagefrights glaciated in time right neon lights a momentum made in taiwan beautiful rows of riches, don't you see there is no war no box, a universe ever changing i throw myself up. crashing down

repeat.

i am the rain an exploding ejaculation crimson skies internal bleeding heart burn stomach ache a disease that will never go away. longing for a dismal future any future painting him dancing in the foreground i would do anything for the saddest mind alive, our shaved heads like lifeboats white frocks sterile scalpels minimalistic clean cut veins bursting open like bedroom doors, LE GRAND FINALE, inject his poison, forever yours.

and i want to download every single picture of you, dress up like a commander in chief captain of the sea a furious shadow play waggling tail and bunny ears, i want to cover my body in the blurry edges of your ghost, paint the walls of the parliament in colour no #1 the slight tint of your neck someone once told me

you always speak in riddles you are fading away i could never begin to understand like a frozen fire a room covered in broken mirrors a black hole wishing well put your ear to my chest listen to a thousand songs the restless chorous

i am not the one wrap your troubles in dreams

take a walk down the baseline

his brittle echo drenched in acid.